Psalm 9:10 Those who know your name trust you because You have not abandoned any who seek you, Lord.
It is funny to say that I am a girl who trusts everyone, some people I trust more than myself and believed that they can’t ever do wrong, they will never betray me, at the same time, I used to think they will trust and believed me as I do. But I am dead wrong…this is not possible as they are just human beings. It is true that we all are human and have our own weaknesses. I searched for what is in God within Humans which is not possible.
This notion of trusting others break me down again and again but didn’t learn from it. It was in 2018 that I was first time emotionally broken down due to trusting others, again in 2019 I goes through the same thing with trusted people, these struggles affect my life, studies, relationships, and everything. It hurts so bad that I thought I can never trust others again, I was in depression…I hate everyone, I don’t want to talk and don’t want to be around others, negativity crept into my mind, all at once I cannot understand why people are so lame, they say something else and do something else.
I was totally changed, the girl who was known to be a positive girl changed into something else, I missed the old me, who easily trust others, filled with positive vibes wherever she is. I feel like I am lost, I want someone to come and save me from this, I feel like I was drawing, day after day, Can’t share it with anyone.
It was during this time, God showed me He alone is trustworthy. As long as you trust others and expect others to treat you the same you do. You will be hurt and broken again and again. Trust only me, for I am your God, I cannot share your trust with others. Remember that I should be the only one whom you should trust 100%, and you should depend on me alone. This is the lesson I learned a hard way. Dear if you are hurt because you trust others more than yourself, I am telling you… you will only end up hurting yourself again and again…remember only God is trustworthy.
“Trust human and you will be torn apart, trust God and He will mend you.”- Nei